- BenBen -

2010-08-30T22:37:00.001+08:00

Look.

Yea I don't really care anymore.
So what if we're a team, so what if we're role models.

Well I'm sorry I'm not just cut out to be part of you all, I'm sorry I'm not you.
Don't just label me as part of your gang.

K, bye.

2010-03-07T14:06:00.000+08:00

2010-02-22T22:19:00.001+08:00

"Hymn For The Shameless"

Saw your eyes today in a memory painted in the sky.
You smiled and said to me, "a love like this can never truly die."

So now the show's over and I've got to disguise the thing I've become.
I only wish I could stop laughing!
I grin because the joke is on them this time!
They don't have a clue.

Calm consumes me.

(I immerse myself in sick reflection...)
I shut my eyes and once again the pleasure strangles me.
I taste the tears of sweet indulgence, pain and fantasy.
Oh, the visions inside my head...
The emptiness will haunt you...

(I immerse myself in sick reflection...)
Sanity is slowly slipping from my hands now.
I'm standing closer to the edge than I should be allowed.
Oh, what little regret I have...
Does that make me a killer?

I am the face of death standing right behind you.
Yet you're oblivious to my cold breath on your neck.
Is it just too easy?
Am I just too good at this?
I am the chosen one.
I am the end of all and now you are mine!

Calm consumes me.

(I immerse myself in sick reflection...)
I shut my eyes and once again the pleasure strangles me.
I taste the tears of sweet indulgence, pain and fantasy.
Oh, the visions inside my head...
The emptiness will haunt you...

(I immerse myself in sick reflection...)
Sanity is slowly slipping from my hands now.
I'm standing closer to the edge than I should be allowed.
Oh, what little regret I have...
Does that make me a killer?

Saw your eyes today in a memory painted in the sky.
You smiled and said to me, "a love like this can never truly die."

Let's just say you're right and the nightmare ends, we wake up side by side.
What makes you think that I would let you live?
I've really lost my mind...

Behold, for I am the will of the reaper!
Beg for the mercy of your worthless angels!

As relief washes over me, calm consumes me.

(I immerse myself in sick reflection...)
I shut my eyes and once again the pleasure strangles me.
I taste the tears of sweet indulgence, pain and fantasy.
Oh, the visions inside my head...
The emptiness will haunt you...

(I immerse myself in sick reflection...)
Sanity is slowly slipping from my hands now.
I'm standing closer to the edge than I should be allowed.
Oh, what little regret I have...
Does that make me a killer?
[x3]

Soooo, CA should be coming up soon.
I'm feeling bored everyday. Andd maths kills me everyday in tutorials.

Raaawwwrrrrr

2010-02-11T20:10:00.002+08:00

So 1st week of the term is close to over, and to be honest, a bit of regret arises.
The topics are of so much difference in Secondary school. Andd I have to wake up so early. Shiiitttt.

Oh well, this can't change the fact that at least it's better than staying at home all day.

Anyway, hello everybody ~
CNY around the corner ~
Andd uh, I think I'll go back YY for fun :3

2010-01-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

"Alesana - Curse Of The Virgin Canvas"

(I am here to tell you a story.
A story that will torture your thoughts by day and poison your dreams by night.
And though I will do my best, there are no words
that can be written nor brush strokes laid on canvas
that can describe the stark and utter horror of the night that Annabel died.
The emptiness will haunt you.)

This is a nightmare, is my Annabel really gone?
My eyes are stung by daylight, I find it hard to breathe.
Her body teases me as the sun reveals the dawn.
The smell of blood still crawls, I kiss you softly goodbye.

Baby, lay in my arms and cuddle me close.
Soon this will be just an awful memory...
Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

I watch the blood drip from the corners of your mouth.
Your icy flesh is lying, your pallid skin still glows.
I'm starting to believe what my eyes are seeing now.
You're still so beautiful and yet so morbidly still.

Baby, lay in my arms and cuddle me close.
Soon this will be just an awful memory...
Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

Sweet revenge... He will pay, he will pay my dear.
Empty eyes accuse a face so evil, I'm coming undone.
The mirror says it all, a crimson story of innocence lost.
Empty eyes accuse a face so evil, I'm coming undone.
What have I done to her?

So terribly memory returns of her struggle, of her screams, of her.
Lord forgive me!
My stomach heaves as I see the blood that covers me.
Blood that was once hers.
I'm a monster!

... Such an awful memory... Will I ever be able to sleep again?

My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming.
(please wake me up, please wake me).
A girl like you will always be such a tragic part of me.
(oh ecstasy you torture me).

Sweet revenge... He will pay, he will pay my dear.

(A mirror never lies.
They know.
Everybody knows.
Do you not see what they see?
A mirror never lies.
I see what they see. Everybody knows. Everybody knows.)

New year? I feel late.
Okkkk so nothing much happened, now uh, appealing to TPJC.

Got into DET*Games Nanyang Poly, hahaha.
Mao dun oh ~

2009-12-28T01:40:00.002+08:00

Soo, uh, it's gonna be January soon.
I mean, I don't really mind the month.

It's just the results, ya?
So afraid I'll like shit.

Always the unexpected.

Meh, whatever.

"The Thespian"

(Baby) why are you doing this to me
(Sweetheart) Are those your eyes staring straight back at me
(Angel) I see your smile everywhere
(Darling, stop)

Night falls and I'm running in circles
I'm being chased by my imagination

Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine
No one deserves to live like this!

I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight it's just you and me

Night as dark as my thoughts sets the scene for my return
Lightning nips at my heels as I race home
Wearily I stagger towards the song of her pale voice
Demons jeer my attempt to be free

Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine
No one deserves to live like this

I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
You smile and it makes me fly
You are the reason my heart beats
Tonight its just you and me

Windows cast her gentle reflection
Her somber silhouette dances for me
Dear God, it's her

Look at you, you miserable fool
Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears
Gods turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut
And now you're knocking on the devils door

Ive been expecting you for some time, sir
Allow me to introduce myself
I'm the one who pulls on all the strings, son
You're lucky I don't kill you where you stand

Tonight I raise my glass for I know its time to move on
(this can't be real. there's nothing left)
My patience will not last, tomorrow I will be gone
(all hope has failed. Ive lost my soul)

2009-12-02T21:57:00.001+08:00

Start of Dec, ending of 2009.
Soon another life will begin; O level results.

Ohh man it's so boring now.
Must go exercise to kill time.

"The Cheap Bouquet - Pierce The Veil"

Stay young and at the top of our lungs
Our hands are free
Our lives have just begun

It's getting dark, we should go back
But what's the use if what you love is what you have?
And I could die right now
For something beautiful to take me somewhere else

Oh, I try to calm down
As I drag myself along these severed hands
(Severed hands) Are doing the very best they can

I'm gonna buy a cheap bouquet
Before it dies on the display
(Gonna break down)
Break down the better side of me
(The better side of me)

Well I know, I know if I die young
Then we can wake up screaming in your bed
And our lungs are begging us to calm down

And I scare myself with all that talk of severing
Doing the best or so it seems
(You've been mistaken)
Your finger's on the scale
(Burn like you never have before
Stop, drop and roll don't work in hell)
So what if I forget regret?
So what if I...
So what if I forget regret?
So what if I...
So what if I...
So what if I...
So what if I...

I want you to know that I...
That I've wrote this line a thousand times
Yeah
Forget regret

This must be the way it ends

Calm down as I drag myself along
These severed hands are doing the very best they can
As I drive my car into the sea
(I taste you like a hammer through my teeth)
Will someone tell me what it means to be alive?
It feels just like the feeling when you die

Oh, all right, I'm dead and I don't care if it's cold outside anymore
So come on, let's have some fucking fun

2009-11-24T11:10:00.001+08:00

Ok.
I've decided.

No more.

I can try.

~

Sooo, holidays been boring so far.
Wake up, eat, play, sleep, eat, play, sleep.

Pretty much the same routine.
I feel like eating pepper lunch. O_o.

Cinematic Sunrise

"Crossing Our Fingers For The Summer"

Winter's come,
Now I'm cold,
Singing along to this courtesy call,
A reminder that the season is near.
The wait's now over.

As I follow the skyline,
A familiar melody takes my breath away,
In time, the lights and the street signs show me,
I know I'm where I belong.

I wake up to
A mental feeling that I once knew.
Winter's passing as I slumber,
Crossing our fingers for the summer.

And I know that each night must end,
But with our eyes, maybe we'll just pretend
This weather could last forever
No need for saying goodbye.

As I follow the skyline,
A familiar melody takes my breath away,
In time, the lights and the street signs show me,
I know I'm where I belong.

I wake up to
A mental feeling that I once knew.
Winter's passing as I slumber,
Crossing our fingers for the summer.

We spent our nights searching for this,
A star to turn into a wave,
And I,
I think that we can make it rain

I wake up to
A mental feeling that I once knew.
Winter's passing as I slumber,
Crossing our fingers for the summer.
I wake up to
A mental feeling that I once knew.
Winter's passing as I slumber,
Crossing our fingers for the summer.

2009-11-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

And yet, to say the truth, reason and love keep little company nowadays - Shakespeare

Oh well.
I should give up on all these thoughts.
Why not.

Say hi. Once.

2009-11-21T08:02:00.002+08:00

And I will see you someday again in the clouds.

Odd job is killing me.

And why is this always happening?
Fuck.

Ahaha, I keep trying, I keep failing.
Then I try again, and I fail some more.
With hesitations, I still fail.

I don't know why, but each time it doesn't happens, I feel so sad.
I should stop now.

"Empty With You"

I haven't lost anything except my mind
Expect a thousand confessions that you will not find
I try to take off my head sometimes,
because I can't escape the memories
I haven't lost anything except my mind (except my mind)

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything,
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you.

I haven't wasted anything except my time (except my time)
Forget the treasures we burned because we'll be just fine
I try to take off my head sometimes
because I can't escape for the life of me,
I haven't lost anything except my mind (my mind)

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow,
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you

Instead of going underground
Instead of calling them up
Instead of running 'cause your still breathing
Instead of swallowing lies
Instead of buried alive
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
If you need a confession, I'm guilty
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
Do you think I feel sorry? Forgive me.
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding
Instead of going underground
Instead of calling them out
Let's twist the knife 'til they can't stop bleeding

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you

2009-11-19T14:27:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I think I need to go somewhere where I can shout as loud as I can.
Too much.

Too much.

2009-11-18T11:13:00.004+08:00

End of chalet.
No more anything. Rejoice? Hm yea.

I don't really feel good.
You make me feel addicted to you.
But your words have no meaning.

What is this they call love?
Is it when you think about her all the time?
Is it when you want her to be beside you forever?
I don't know. Help me.

Fuck.

2009-11-13T22:41:00.003+08:00

End of story, no more shit, no more.

I finally don't have to face anything other than the walls in my house.
But it feels all so weird, yea.

Fuck.

"The Undertaker's Thirst For Revenge Is Unquenchable (The Final Battle)"

My eyes are glistening with the ghosts of my past
The memories that we once had

Now that you've turned the world against me
I'm only trying to win them back

With my eyes sewn shut
To shut down and bathe in these words about me
And now you're standing alone with your eyes to the sun
Standing alone with your eyes to the sun

That heaven and earth may strike their sounds together
Worlds are ruined this way,
And we've all been there time and time again

Before the battle always seem so still
And I will see you someday again in the clouds
And I will see you someday again in the clouds

All the world's a stage!
And all the world's a stage!

With my eyes sewn shut
To shut down and bathe in these words about me
And now you're standing alone with your eyes to the sun
Standing alone with your eyes to the sun

That heaven and earth may strike their sounds together
Worlds are ruined this way,
And we've all been there time and time again

Time

My eyes are glistening with the ghosts of my past
And what we once had

And all the world's a stage
I existed because I dreamed
And well, I dream no more
I've given up on the entire human race

[Spoken:]
Empty... is the sky before the sun wakes up
Empty... is the eyes of animals in cages
Empty... the faces of women in mourning
When everything has been taken from them
Me? Don't ask me about empty

2009-11-11T20:15:00.001+08:00

In 2 days, O levels will end. Felt like it just started, meh.
Time for the no life me to go in

"Do What You Do"

No one is telling me the speed I should be travelling
So watch me take the lead
No one is telling me the speed I should be travelling
So watch me take the lead, yeah

There is an engine in my body
With every beat it lets me breathe
There is a machine within my body
If I could keep up with that machine that's in my body
I could do anything, be anything, see anything
I can feel the beat within my body
If I keep up with it could I catch myself?

Have you ever been fake for the sake of saving face?
You can work, you can play
From the cradle to the grave
Doesn't matter what they say
Have you ever been fake for the sake of saving face?
You can move as you make
From the cradle to the grave
Doesn't matter what they say

Quick, quick, quick, come fix me up
I need to make my move (Make my move)
This damn machine doesn't work the way that it used to
But that's what I get for taking it for granted
(I never even meant it, never even meant it)
That's what I get for taking it for granted
(No, I never even meant it, never even meant it)
If I keep up with it can I catch myself?

Have you ever been fake for the sake of saving face?
You can work, you can play
From the cradle to the grave
Doesn't matter what they say
Have you ever been fake for the sake of saving face?
You can move as you make
From the cradle to the grave
Doesn't matter what they say

No one is telling me the speed I should be travelling
So watch me take the lead (Watch me take the lead)
No one is telling me the speed I should be travelling
So watch me take the lead (Watch me take the lead)
No one is telling me the speed I should be travelling (No one, no one)
So watch me, watch me take the lead

Have you ever been fake for the sake of saving face?
You can work, you can play
From the cradle to the grave
Doesn't matter what they say
Have you ever been fake for the sake of saving face?
You can move as you make
From the cradle to the grave
Doesn't matter what they say
Doesn't matter what they say

2009-11-07T22:27:00.002+08:00

"Loser"

A loser can win whenever they want to
All that they gotta, gotta do
Is bring you down (bring you down)
Is bring you down

A loser can win whenever they choose to
All that they gotta, gotta do
Is bring you down (bring you down)
Is bring you down

I've read of a man up in a room
Who can control everything I do
But what do I know?
What do I know?
And if the story of the man isn't true
Then tell me what I should do
Should I take off the blindfold?
Or do what I'm told?

A loser can win whenever they want to
All that they gotta, gotta do
Is bring you down (bring you down)
Is bring you down

A loser can win whenever they choose to
All that they gotta, gotta do
Is bring you down (bring you down)
Is bring you down

Is morality real to me?
Can I believe in what I cannot see?
Oh no, I will not be sold (I will not be sold)
The world has this ability
To make a life of sin look sweet
Oh no, this can't be complete (this can't be complete)
Oh no

But we'll never know
about the life I chose
I won't believe
I won't be so naive until I go
Yeah we'll never know
'til these eyes close

But we'll never know
about the life I chose
I won't believe
I won't be so naive until I go
Yeah we'll never know
'til my eyes close

Whoa...

A loser can win whenever they want to
All that they gotta, gotta do
Is bring you down (bring you down)
Is bring you down

A loser can win whenever they choose to
All that they gotta, gotta do
Is bring you down (bring you down)
Is bring you down

I've read of a man up in a room

Oh yea, 3 more papers left. (Well, technically 5)
Then, I'm just gonna stay at home and stone my holidays away, seeing that, well, you know.

Meh.

2009-11-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

"That 70's Song"

And lately I've been walking
From all these places that I cannot stand
I guess it's just my history talking
Or I'm refusing to supply your demands

You say the storm will pass
We'll work it out
The road can get a little rough sometimes
I'll move it fast without a doubt
Our hearts will beat in separate rooms tonight
But tonight

Baby, we belong alone
This last second chance is blown
Baby, we belong alone
I got another you at home
Baby, we belong alone, alone

And lately you've been knocking
But I never really listened or cared
'Cause when I told you I was walking
I was reeling her in with my stare

You say the storm will pass
We'll work it out
The road can get a little rough sometimes
I'll move it fast without a doubt
Our hearts will beat in separate rooms tonight
But tonight

Baby, we belong alone
This last second chance is blown
Baby, we belong alone
I got another you at home
Baby, we belong alone, alone

Baby, we belong alone
This last second chance is blown
Baby, we belong alone
I got another you at home

Baby, we belong alone
This last second chance is blown
Baby, we belong alone
I got another you at home
Baby, we belong alone, alone

When everything else fails.

2009-10-21T00:48:00.001+08:00

You should listen, ok?

"Can You Keep A Secret?"

It's true that I'm a silver shadow
And you are always on my mind
You need to get over here; we'll disappear

Your secret's safe, and no one has to know
I'm your getaway, and a little bit more than you can take
I can make everything feel so damn good

I could've sworn we disappeared tonight
Come on and dance with me
Come on and dance with me, baby
And don't you know I just appeared tonight?
You want to dance with me
You want to dance with me all night
Nobody there will ever see us
Don't talk, don't walk; it's just the two of us
Dance with me, dance with me
You want to dance with me
Dance with me, baby

Soon we're heading to a place where I'll prove
I'm all you want and more
You need to let it unfold just like you're told

Your secret's safe, and no one has to know
I'm your getaway, and a little bit more than you can take
I can make everything feel so good

I could've sworn we disappeared tonight
Come on and dance with me
Come on and dance with me, baby
And don't you know I just appeared tonight?
You want to dance with me
You want to dance with me all night
Nobody there will ever see us
Don't talk, don't walk; it's just the two of us
Dance with me, dance with me
You want to dance with me
Dance with me, baby

Soon (Dance with me) we're heading to a place where I'll prove
I'm all you want and more
(Dance with me, dance with me baby)
You need to let it unfold just like you're told

Your secret's safe, and no one has to know
(Dance with me, dance with me baby)
I'm your getaway, and a little bit more than you can take
(Dance with me, dance with me baby)
I can make everything feel so good
(Dance with me, dance with me baby)

You're secret's safe, and no one has to know
(I could've sworn we disappeared tonight)
I'm your getaway, and a little bit more than you can take
(Come on and dance with me)
(Come on and dance with me, baby)
I ca make everything feel so damn good
(And don't you know I just appeared tonight?)
(You want to dance with me)
(You want to dance with me all night)
Your secret's safe, and no one has to know I'm your
(Nobody there will ever see us)
(Don't talk, don't walk; it's just the two of us)
(Dance with me, dance with me)
(You want to dance with me)
I can make everything feel so damn good
(Dance with me, baby)

Good, good, feel so damn good, good

2009-10-19T19:16:00.001+08:00

"Miss Sobriety"

Hey Miss Sobriety, do you remember me?
Or how to say my name?
Do remember when we were friends,
Yeah all the way back then

You caused the confidence but you never taught it how to stay
And if I learned one thing, it's that you always have a price to pay
I've heard one man's trash is another man's treasure

Hey Miss Sobriety, do you remember me?
Or how to say my name?
Do remember when we were friends,
Yeah all the way back then (all the way back then)

Hey! Hey! Hey! Miss Confidence do you remember
when you kept me safe?
Are my eyes deceiving? Are you believing?
Or have I made you lose your faith?
One man's pain is another man's pleasure

Hey Miss Sobriety, do you remember me?
Or how to say my name?
Do you remember when we were friends,
Yeah all the way back then
One man's trash is another man's treasure
Don't you wonder why I even left her
One man's pain is another man's pleasure

I never thought I'd get so low
Never thought that I could get so low
This is as far as I will go
I never thought I'd get so low
When I stop the diggin' it's the bottom I know
I never thought I'd get so low
Direct me which way I should go

One man's trash is another man's treasure

Hey Miss Sobriety, do you remember me?
Or how to say my name?
Do remember when we were friends,
Yeah all the way back then

One man's trash is another man's treasure
Don't you wonder why I even left her
One man's pain is another man's pleasure
If I could find a way to do this over
One man's trash is another man's treasure
I should have known that she could be my savior
One man's pain is another man's pleasure

Never thought that I could get so low
I never thought I'd get so low
Never thought that I could get so low

I never thought I'd get so low
Never thought that I could get so low [x2]

Officially 6 more days to the first.
I don't feel the urge, you know?

Hahahahahahahaha.
I might go psychotic one day.

2009-10-18T22:11:00.001+08:00

Haplessly trying, even knowing the impossible.

"Doctor"

I'm like a rookie paramedic to a siren
Praying for an accident
Nobody will let me walk
Until I've got no back up
Until they're out of control

This emergency
Brought you to me

I'll be your doctor
I'll be your cure
I'll be your medicine and more
Yeah you can rest assure
I'm your doctor, I'm your cure
I'll be your cure

I've got a secret
Please don't repeat it
I took the chemicals we took to make our chemistry
And I remixed it
It didn't fix it
All it did was make our memories a blur to me

This emergency
Brought you, brought you to me

I'll be your doctor
I'll be your cure
I'll be your medicine and more
Yeah you can rest assure
I'm your doctor, I'm your cure
I'll be your cure

I'll be, I'll be your cure [x3]
I'll be, I'll be yours
I'll be, I'll be your whore
I'll be, I'll be your cure [x2]
I'll be, I'll be yours
I'll be, I'll be your cure [x3]

This emergency
Brought you to...

I'll be your doctor
I'll be your cure
I'll be your medicine and more
Yeah you can rest assure
I'm your doctor, I'm your cure
I'll be your cure

This is it for me.....this is it for me...this is it for me...this is it for me

This is it for me! [x4]

2009-10-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

"What A Catch, Donnie"

I've got troubled thoughts and the self esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch woah-oh
You'll never catch us so just let me be instead
I'll be fine 'til the hospital or american embassy
Miss Flack said I still want you back
Miss Flack said I still want you back

I've got troubled thoughts and the self esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of is the way I'm the one who charmed
The one who gave up on you
Who gave up on you

They say the captian goes down with the ship
So when the world ends will God go down with it
Miss Flack said I still want you back
Miss Flack said I still want you back

I've got troubled thoughts and the self esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of is the way I'm the one who charmed
The one who gave up on you
Who gave up on you

Na na nanana
Na na nanana
Na na nanana
Na na nanana

What a catch, what a catch
What a catch, what a catch

(Elvis Costello:)
I will never end up like him behind my back I already am, keep a calendar this way you will always know.

I've got troubled thoughts and the self esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of is the way I'm the one who charmed
The one who gave up on you
Who gave up on you

(Gabe Saporta:)
(Where is your boy tonight
I hope he is a gentlemen
maybe he won't find out what I know
you were the last good thing about this part of town)

(Travis McCoy:)
(We're going down down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complex cock it and pull it)

(Brendon Urie:)
(Dance, dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, dance
and these are the lives you'd love to lead)

(Doug Neuman:)
(This ain't a scene its a God damn arms race
This ain't a scene its a God damn arms race)

(Alex DeLeon:)
(One night and one more time
thanks for the memories
even if they weren't that great
he tastes like you only sweeter)

(William Beckett:)
(Growing up, growing up)

I've got troubled thoughts and the self esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch

Finally, after 4 years in my secondary education life, we've all reached the end hurdle of the race.
Facing graduation, I was happy for I didn't have to wake up anymore, but even so, every problem has its own 2 sides.

Everything I've gone through in secondary school will surely latch onto me for life, if not more.
All the fighting, all the laughing, all the shouting, all the playing, all the mugging, all the scribbling, all the Z's we caught.
It's all part of life, and a part of life it will always be.

There are times when you wished you weren't in school right now, but there are also times when you wished school would never end.

After all, many of your life-long friends are part of this period.
I've got to say, even though I deem myself anti-social, I still made a number of friends, a number of enemies, and a group of close friends(?). Even if I was always "emo", they'd still cheerfully chat around, spreading the spirit around, and eventually catching me.

Anyway, our class teacher made us write a list of things we'll miss when we leave Yuying, I thought it should be alright to share it.

After leaving, I will miss:
-All the teachers that ever taught me (Ms Jasmine Lee, Ms Kassandra, Ms Kok, Mr Chia, Mr Danny, Mr Lawrence, Mr Desmond Ong, Mdm Ida)
-All the friends I made, especially a few noteworthy ones. [Shanon, Shuo Feng, Leon, Morris], softballers for life man. [Lynn, Andy, JiaLing, Wen An, Yu Cheng, Ronal, Kee Loke, Ridwan, Khair, Choy Ting, Yuan Ting, Li Yin, Jasmine Neo/Lin/Koh, Don, Edmund, Top, Fariz, Rebecca]. And many others.
-The softball trainings we had, suffering after it, and playing until our legs cramped up and burns the next day.
-Sheepishly "pon-ning" art lessons in sec2 with a bunch.
-Looking at girls around the school for the fun of it.
-Buying milo in the morning, recess and after school [Good business for Auntie]
-Disturbing the teachers who are like friends to us.
-Creating trouble in class with everyone.
-Shouting out loud when it was so damn boring.
-Tou tou de use phone in class.
-Studying before a test.
-Copying homework.
-Singing songs to disturb teachers in class.
-Playing 'chap-teh' in sec2 period, we dominated the area! [SEC 2B!]
-Going to school early just to talk before FRC.
-Going back-gate to eat lunch with friends.
-Going to Heartland Mall to hang around.
-Carrying the gigantic bag.
-Sleeping in class.
-Punching Shuo Feng cause he's like my personal punching bag. [Sec2 streaming results]
-Lynn, cause she always says she's my best friend.
-Scaring people from corners.
-Not handing in homework.
-Disturbing classmates.
-Wearing the uniform, maybe. Hahaha.

And the list goes on you know.
Some special people to comment about.

-Shanon, 4 years make a huge difference, but showed being in different class creates no boundaries.
-Shuo Feng, even if he has a "gang", hahaha still an ass, and a good friend. Can spam SMS or prank call. Good listener sometimes.
-Leon, even though we only got together mid- sec2, we're still close enough as friends, even more. The one who screams like a girl, but man enough to us.
-Morris, never once in the same class, but since he lives quite near, dinner bud, hahaha, or lunch.
-Lynn, for always being crazy. Can't talk bad about her, or she'll go mad. So kind, hahaha.

Teachers, friends, classmates, events, everything is staying in our heart for life.
When we all get together again? Hopefully soon.

GOTTA LOVE SCHOOL
(Without the mugging)

2009-10-13T22:19:00.001+08:00

[Translated Lyrics]

a person you loved probably has left you before
you probably thought that it's all your fault
that's why i couldn't hold on to you
i thought that i could forget about all this pain
i thought that someone else would come to me
but how come I can't forget about you?

BRIDGE
I look at the sky
and scream
love me again
my small desire
is for it to come down as rain

CHORUS
if my love rains on my head
i remember all the memories
if it rains on my heart
i remember our precious love
if the rain touches my lips
you'd scream to me "I love you"
I follow the path that it's raining on
when I keep on walking, I just wait for you

with the key of trust
i open the box of love
i call you with my prayers of love
even if my love won't get to you

BRIDGE
I look at the sky
and scream
love me again
my small desire
is for it to come down as rain

CHORUS
if my love rains on my head
i remember all the memories
if it rains on my heart
i remember our precious love
if the rain touches my lips
you'd scream to me "I love you"
I follow the path that it's raining on
when I keep on walking, I just wait for you

BRIDGE 2
Let's go back (love)
to those times (love)
just like the only time I prayed for (love)
if i (love)
scream like this
the love rain comes down

if your love rains on my eyes (on my eyes)
you're standing in front of me (like i wanted you to)
if it rains on my ear (if it tickles my ear)
you start whispering in my ear (i love you, i love you)
I love you, if you hug me (hug me)
if you become happy again (happy again)
let's follow the sunny path
you'll see us standing together like we both wanted to

12 more.

2009-10-12T19:07:00.000+08:00

13 more days.
7 more subjects.

BIO CHEM AMATHS MATHS GEOG SS EL RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR.

Mug mug mug mug mug and no I'm not going to stop using the computer.

2009-10-07T20:46:00.001+08:00

You realise how pathetic your life is when your holiday events are as so.

Chalet, BBQ, end.
And that's for the whole 2 months.

Wow.

2009-10-05T16:51:00.001+08:00

FORGET IT!

TIME TO GO HYPER LIKE AN ASS AND START PARTYING AROUND TILL O-LEVELS.

MUGGGGGGG ~~~~
No more worries, no more thinking, no more dreaming, no more lying, no more promised, no more rubbish.

2009-10-04T19:51:00.000+08:00

You're such a pathetic liar.

22 more days.
11 more to graduation.

2009-10-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

Someone once told me, "Benjamin, you're too kind for your own sake. Don't be so kind to everyone, eventually some people will take advantage of this."

Sometimes, I believe it's true, sometimes I don't.
I don't know why, but I feel that maybe I shouldn't try so hard.

What's the point? If I already know it's the impossible.

Even if I say it is pointless, someone will come up to me and say, "You will never know the outcome until you try."

It's like I'm contradicting myself.

Oh yea?

2009-09-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

"Looking Up"

Things are looking up
Oh, finally
I thought I'd never see the day
When you'd smile at me

We always pull through
Oh, when we try
I'm always wrong
But you're never right
Oh, you're never right

Honestly, can you believe
We crossed the world while it's asleep?
I'd never trade it in
'Cause I've always wanted this and
It's not a dream anymore, no
It's not a dream anymore
It's worth fighting for

Could have given up so easily
I was a few cheap shots away
From the end of me

Taken for granted
Almost everything
That I would have died for
Just yesterday
Just yesterday

Honestly, can you believe
We crossed the world while it's asleep?
I'd never trade it in
'Cause I've always wanted this and
It's not a dream anymore, no
It's not a dream anymore
It's worth fighting for

God knows the world doesn't need another band
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh
But what a waste it would've been
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh
I can't believe we almost hung it up
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh
We're just getting started
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh, oh

Honestly, can you believe
We crossed the world while it's asleep?
I'd never trade it in
'Cause I've always wanted this and
It's not a dream anymore, no
It's not a dream anymore, no, oh
It's not a dream anymore, no, oh
It's not a dream anymore
It's worth fighting for

I can't believe we almost hung it up
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh
We're just getting started
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh
I can't believe we almost hung it up
Whoa, oh, oh
Whoa, oh, oh
We're just getting started
Yeah, we're just getting started

Ahhh, the nightmares have returned.
It's always the same, the same...

2009-09-29T18:02:00.002+08:00

"Playing God"

Can't make my own decisions
Or make any with precision
Well maybe you should tie me up
So I don't go where you don't want me

You say that I been changing
that I'm not just simply aging
Yeah how could that be logical?
Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat

You don't have to believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

If God's the game that you're playing
Well we must get more acquainted
Because it has to be so lonely
To be the only one who's holy

It's just my humble opinion
But it's one that I believe in
You don't deserve a point of view
If the only thing you see is you

You don't have to believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

This is the last second chance
(I'll point you to the mirror)
I'm half as good as it gets
(I'll point you to the mirror)
I'm on both sides of the fence
(I'll point you to the mirror)
Without a hint of regret
I'll hold you to it

I know you don't believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

I know you won't believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

Why must this always happen to me?
Why now? It was so hard just to do it.

Whatever already, I guess I'll follow anyone's lead.

She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find.

2009-09-27T19:03:00.001+08:00

A month is all it takes.

Oh well.

2009-09-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

"Underdog"

Kill me if you dare, hold my head up everywhere
Keep myself right on this train
I'm the underdog, live my life on a lullaby
Keep myself riding on this train
Keep myself riding on this train

Love in Technicolor sprayed out on walls
Well, I've been pounding at the pavement till there's nothing at all
I got my cloak and dagger in a bar room brawl
See the local loves a fighter, loves a winner to fall

Feels like I'm lost in a moment
I'm always losing to win
Can't get away from the moment
Seems like it's time to begin

Kill me if you dare, hold my head up everywhere
Keep myself right on this train
I'm the underdog, live my life on a lullaby
Keep myself riding on this train
Keep myself riding on this train

It don't matter, I won't do what you say
You've got the money and the power, I won't go your way
I can't take from the people, they don't matter at all
I'll be waiting in the shadows till the day that you fall

Feels like I'm lost in a moment
I'm always losing to win
Can't get away from the moment
Seems like it's time to begin

Kill me if you dare, hold my head up everywhere
Keep myself right on this train
I'm the underdog, live my life on a lullaby
Keep myself riding on this train

Tell me if you're down, throw your weapons to the ground
Keep myself right on this train
Hey bird you're on the wire, sold yourself for another one
Keep myself riding on this train
Keep myself riding on this train

I've always thought, how different my life would be if I chose another path.
How different it would be if I didn't meet some people; if I met some people.

I always wondered, when will there be a time machine for me to achieve this.
If only I could bring time back, I would be different.

2009-09-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

"The Blowers Daughter"

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

Where's the motion in all of this?

2009-09-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

Hi.
The end, ya? :)

2009-09-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

Alright.
End of the line.

"Sold My Soul"

I think of the one that I've become.
Left blind from the brightness of your Halo.
No one shines, like you do.

My filthy mouth and broken words.
This small disease that leaves me, crawling.
Crawling to you.

Crawl on the ground for cover,
staying close to the dark to keep from falling (falling),
from falling.

Sold my life to bring the rain,
maybe to wash me clean.
Sold my soul to stop the pain,
hoping you'd set me free.
All your fear, all your shame.
You know that you can lay it all on me.
That you can lay it all on me.

I took every chance to lash my tongue.
You wore the scabs just like an Angel.
There's something about you.

Horrible things that I have done.
Seems this disease is slowly spreading.
Start running, what would you do?

I crawl on the ground for cover.
Staying out of my mind to keep from dying (dying),
from dying.

Sold my life to bring the rain,
maybe to wash me clean.
Sold my soul to stop the pain,
hoping you'd set me free.
All your fear, all your shame.
You know that you can lay it all on me.
You know that you can lay it all on me.

Would you forget then what I said and how I died inside my head.
We're starting over, not pretending that the past is dead.

All the pain you'd feel you owned.
And times I've should have known.
Don't keep it inside, let it out and lay it all on me!

Sold my life to bring the rain,
maybe to wash me clean.
Sold my soul to stop the pain,
hoping you'd set me free.
All your fear, all the blame.
You know that you can lay it all on me.
That you can lay it all on me.

It's just infatuation.

2009-09-09T17:05:00.001+08:00

09/09/09.

Fantastic date, huh? ;).
Midway through prelims, and I haven't started studying my SS @_@,
Gotta start.

2 MORE MONTHS TO THE END OF O LEVELS

2009-08-29T22:03:00.003+08:00

Ohh
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries

Sometimes, I think I should hate myself.
And probably just run away.

Honestly speaking, I don't really have that many friends to begin with.
What? Can't I say that.

Whatever man, fuck this shit.
If only I tried harder.

After a year, I finally realised.

2009-08-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

Utter failure, huh.

I don't know why I gave it up.
I guess it's because I thought so.

2009-08-23T21:52:00.003+08:00

Well, officially 2 more months to O levels, and I haven't even gotten serious yet.
Like, there's this part of me telling me to study, but I just ignore it.

Guess it's just me.
Meh.

Spending most of my time doing nothing now, ha.
When will I get serious? Time will tell, meh.

She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
Than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s tripping on the phone
Now he doesn’t want her out there and alone
Now he knows she’s moving it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s loosing it
She don’t care

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

He was always giving her attention
Working hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
By most sucka’s hated
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him

She calls him up she’s tripping on the phone
Now he had to get up and he ain’t coming home
Now he’s trying to forget her
That's how he got with her
When he first met her
When they first got together

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

To the beat
To the beat
To the beat

You got nothing to lose,
Don’t be afraid to get down

We break up it’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay
Let it go
Get out there and find someone

It’s too late to be tripping on the phone here
Get off the wire
Now everything is good here
Stop what you’re doing
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
Find a new one

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”
Feeling good now
Don’t be afraid to get down say:
”I don’t wanna be in love, I don’t wanna be in love”

No
No

Now you know what to do
So come on
Feeling good

2009-08-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

Pathetic.
C5 for my Chinese.

Retaking, time to mug; seriously.
No more manga updates, so it's all study, study and study!

2009-08-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

"Come Undone"

Opened up my failure
When you refused to go insane.
I felt you get excited
When I whispered all the things you love to hate.

Like you're the one who kills.
Could kill me with a drug, your weapon.
Let's pretend there's
Nothing wrong with my direction.

Hate me,
I'll be your, your loaded gun.
Burn me
Waiting to come undone.

I'll set it up inside you,
To watch you burn.
Hate me,
I'll be the, I'll be the end that you deserve.

Open lacerations,
A slower cut to feel your pain.
Heat the blood to boiling
As it passes from your lips into your brain.

'Cause you're the one who kills.
Could kill me with a drug, your weapon.
Let's pretend that
I'm not dead, it's in your head.

Hate me,
I'll be your, your loaded gun.
Burn me
Waiting to come undone.

I'll set it up inside you,
To watch you burn.
Hate me,
I'll be the, I'll be the end that you deserve.
I'll be the end that you deserve.

I can turn you on like fire.
Set fire deep inside you.
Eat you alive and watch you
Come and let me up the sonisphere!

I'll be your
I'll be your
I'll be your
I'll be the end that you deserve.
I'll be the end that you deserve.

Hate me,
I'll be your, your loaded gun.
Burn me
Waiting to come undone

I'll set it up inside you,
To watch you burn.
Hate me,
I'll be the, I'll be the end that you deserve.
I'll be the end that you deserve.

How did everything become so complicated?
Oh yea, I take blame.

2009-08-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

"Watered Down"

In my eyes, close and jaded,
It's no surprise the lights have faded
I'll always walk away
You'll always hear me say I don't need this

I've been given such a gift
Shame to take advantage of it
Watch it, wasting leaves you wanting more
Be careful what you're wishing for

Nothing that I can hold on to with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away
Yeah, it makes no difference if I throw it away

Now, my days, are feeling number
The sad cliché
I'm hiding under this spiderweb of dreams
I'm stuck here as it seems to be breaking

Shining brighter than you burn
Something that I would never learn
I could never lay this curse on you
'Cuz I've seen the days when there's...

Nothing that I can hold on to with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away

'Cause it makes no difference
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away
It makes no difference
It makes no difference if I throw it away
Makes no difference if I throw it away

It all just ends up tasting watered down
(stop being so complicated)
And everyone has found an easy way out
An easy way out

It all just ends up tasting watered down
(stop being so complicated)
And everyone has found an easy way out
An easy way out

Nothing that I can hold on to with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away

'Cause it makes no difference
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away
It makes no difference
It makes no difference if I throw it away
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away (throw it away)

[Spoken:]
Get outta town by sundown.
I say if they don't get outta town,
We kill the men, we kill the women,
we kill the children, we kill the babies,
we kill the blind, we kill the crippled, we kill the crazy...

End of the week, end of the tests.
I didn't study for a single one.
I feel like shit, hahahaha.

It makes no difference if I throw it away

2009-08-11T18:37:00.000+08:00

My SIM card died, so yea, no phone.
Ayee this sucks.
So pathetic @_@.

Get outta my head.

2009-08-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

Got to stop reading the mangas .__.
Oh well, 3 weeks to Prelims, 74 days to O Levels.

I always say this but I don't do it.
Mehh.

2009-08-09T19:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
I think the songs are amazing this year. ;).

Fighting

I said I'd moved on and I'll leave it alone,
But before I walk out there is something that I need you to know,
I got lost in a blink of an eye,
And I can never get back, no I've never got back,
You were not there when I wanted to say,
That you were everything that right and it wasn't you but me to change,
Now I got to go it alone,
But I'll never give up, no I'll never give up

What am I fighting for,
There must me something more,
For all these words I've said,
Do you feel anything

I said I'm ok but I know how to lie,
You were all that i had,
You were delicate and hard to find,
I got lost in the back of my mind,
And I can never get back, no I've never got back
You were not there when I needed to say,
I hit the bottom so fast that my head was spinning 'round for days,
Now I gotta go it alone,
But I will never give up, no I'll never give up

What am I fighting for,
There must me something more,
For all these words I've said,
Do you feel anything

What am I fighting for,
What am I fighting for

Never give up on this [x4]

Said I'm ok but I know how to lie,
But I will never give up, no I'll never give up

What am I fighting for,
There must me something more,
For all these words I've said,
Do you feel anything

What am I fighting for (No I'm never gonna give up, give up)
What am I fighting for (No I'm never gonna give up, give up)

Said that I'd fight for the one that I've found,
I'm gonna stay here while I wait for you to come around,
I fight you're apart of me now,
And I will never give up, no I'll never give up

I'm wasting my weekend, haven't touch any of my homework, or studied for my chemistry.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2009-08-07T17:47:00.001+08:00

If It Means A Lot To You
And hey darling,
I hope you're good tonight.
And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving.
Yeah, I want it but no, I don't need it.
Tell me something sweet to get me by,
'Cause I can't come back home till they're singing

La, la la la, la la la,
Till everyone is singing

If you can wait till I get home,
Then I swear to you that we can make this last.
(La la la)
If you can wait till I get home,
Then I swear come tomorrow, this will all be in our past.
Well it might be for the best.

And hey sweetie,
Well I need you here tonight,
And I know that you don't wanna be leaving me
Yeah, you want it, but I can't help it.
I just feel complete when you're by my side,
But I know you can't come home till they're singing

La, la la la, la la la,
Till everyone is singing.
La, la la la, la la la.

If you can wait till I get home,
Then I swear to you that we can make this last.
(La la la)
If you can wait till I get home,
Then I swear come tomorrow, this will all be in our past.
Well it might be for the best.

You know you can't give me what I need.
And even though you mean so much to me,
I can't wait through everything,
Is this really happening?
I swear I'll never be happy again.
And don't you dare say we can just be friends.
I'm not some boy that you can sway.
We knew it'd happen eventually.

La, la la la, la la la,
Now everybody's singing.
La, la la la, la la la,
Now everybody's singing.
La, la la la, la la la,
(If you can wait till I get home)
Now everybody's singing.
La, la la la, la la la,
(Then I swear we can make this last)
Now everybody's singing.

La, la la la, la la la,
(If you can wait till I get home)
Now everybody's singing.
La, la la la, la la la,
(Then I swear we can make this last)
Now everybody's singing.
La

Long weekend, many tests.
Bah this sucks.

Chemistry and Biology tests for the whole coming week, wow wee.
Gotaa mug, mug muga muggaa.

And I'm addicted to reading manga online ._.
You know, -cough-

2009-08-05T20:15:00.001+08:00

It's a beautiful full moon tonight.
I never got to share it with anyone.

The crimson shape, the full circle, the craters and everything, so clearly seen in the dark sky.
I should go sky-gazing after O Levels. ;)

2009-08-03T20:26:00.002+08:00

Cut Me, Mick

I can’t keep this together
And I might lose this year
I can’t get through December
And you know all my fears

Someplace somewhere behind me
I walked right through the truth
Truth is that you’re the one thing
That always pulls me through
This troubled life I choose

You are the one that I need
You know that I can still bleed
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

You brought me down from my cloud
You keep my feet on the ground
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

When I thought that I might be invincible
It wasn’t long before I was invisible
To your eyes and I swear
There’s nothing left in here
And the more you say you don’t care
The more I know you’re there

You are the one that I need
You know that I can still bleed
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

You brought down from my cloud
You keep my feet on the ground
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

I can’t keep this together (you are the one that I need)
I can’t stay sick forever (you know that I can still bleed)
I can’t stop this disaster (you bring me down from my cloud)
I can’t fall any faster

You are the one that I need
You know that I can still bleed
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

You are the one that I need
You know that I can still bleed
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

You brought me down from my cloud
You keep my feet on the ground
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

You are the one that I need
You know that I can still bleed
You brought me down from my cloud
You keep my feet on the ground

Haircut.
Wow this is weird, the scissors blade running through my head.

SHING! NO MOREEE

2009-08-02T20:28:00.003+08:00

It just goes to show that some words are useless.
It just goes to show that some words are useless.
Take all your medals, take all your ribbons,
Take all your awards, take them, take them back to the ground.

84 more excruciating days to O levels. 12 more heart-wrenching weeks. 3 more devastating months.

Push everything. Force everything.

Put it all into my studies, no more fooling, I keep saying.
I never listen to myself.

We've all sung of the end, but who truly understands it?
All along, All along.
Forward can't be stopped.

3 hours of Chemistry tuition today.
It wasn't that bad, since I was comfortable in the air-conditioned room. Maybe except for the 1st 1.5 hours, 10 people in a small cramped room, deprived of oxygenzxzxz.

Gotta concentrate on my Humanities now, I suck at it.
SEQ, SBQ, Rivers, Development, Vegetation, Coasts, Sri Lanka, Northen Ireland, Bonding Singapore, Deterrence & Diplomacy, Health care, Venice, shit shit shit, and what-not.
Functionnn, I can't keep all these in my head. I might explode.

Biology; Chemistry; A-maths.
Ohh man, I felt so helpless on the A-maths test.

We could build a monument for memory:
Liberation includes failure.
Your rebellion is resultless.
So be angry at yourself.
If only we did not deserve this.
Your rebellion is resultless.
So be angry at yourself.

I gotta study. Study you shit ass, I tell myself, but I always ignore myself.

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain

Wow this sucks.

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

2009-08-01T14:39:00.001+08:00

Craig David - Insomnia

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ahh-ahh ahhhhh.
Tuition ~
This sucks, my weekends are gone, my weekdays are gone.

But for 3 more months, PLEASE GO BY.
I will work hard, I've got to set my priorities right.

2009-07-31T20:53:00.002+08:00

I went for softball after so long.
I'm glad how it can actually make me so calm, yet it tires me.

Hmmm.
Anyway, you know who you are.
I'll tell you my problems, when we're alone.
But it'll be, uh, faint, if that's what you call it.

2009-07-30T22:15:00.001+08:00

Sore throat is gone, lotsa mucus traveling down my throat.

Can't talk or breathe properly, kill me.

2009-07-29T20:15:00.002+08:00

There's just some shit in life which doesn't go your way.
I've learned that.

You know how fucked up you feel after some events, but got no one to rant to?
Yea, that's practically how I feel everyday. This is shit.

Gotta get outtta school.
Man.

I don't want to hear anyone commenting on this, a'ight.

2009-07-28T21:00:00.003+08:00

I woke up to being alone at home.
I need food.

I got played. Shit.

School-ing as per normal, still as bored by it.
O Levels, o levels. I hope it comes and go quickly. This way I'll get out of this worm-hole of a school.
It's hard enough, meh.

Mr Brightside

Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

And I just can’t look - it's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies [acoustic version of the song says: "Swimming through sick lullabies"]
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr. Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

'Cause I just can’t look - it's killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies [acoustic version of the song says: "Swimming through sick lullabies"]
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...
I never...

2009-07-26T22:32:00.002+08:00

And someone didn't believe me when I said I have a blister, meh.

"Welcome Home"

You could've been all I wanted
But you weren't honest
Now get in the ground
You choked off the surest of favors
But if you really loved me
You would've endured my world

Well if you're just as I presumed
A whore in sheep's clothing
Fucking up all I do
And if so here we stop
Then never again
Will you see this in your life

Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here laid to rest is our love ever longed
With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs

You stormed off to scar the armada
Like Jesus played martyr,
I'll drill through your hands
The stone for the curse you have blamed me
With love and devotion, I'll die as you sleep
But if you could just write me out
To neverless wonder... happy will I become
Be true that this is no option,
So with sin I condemn you
Demon play, demon out!

Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here laid to rest is our love ever longed
With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs

One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl...
I'd do anything for you
One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl...
Before I hope you die

Went to the hillsong concert yesterday.
Man, ear blasting scene, it was cool.

Got scolding since I reached home at 1.45 ._.
Gaah, didn't want to either, hahaha.

Softball today, mannnn mistakes. I suck, meh.
School, SPA Bio tomorrow, hopefully it's importance of light, it's simple.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Ohhhhhhhhh, why oh why.

2009-07-24T22:19:00.002+08:00

Down with the flu now.
I feel terrible, gaa.

Going to the don't know what with all the peepurs from school.
Some ZONE thingy? Sing songs, hahaha.
At least I get to stay out :3.

Twitter updates are up at the right of my blog, and uh, I'm bored.
I think having a phone is kinda useless for me, nothing to do with it.

This is how I spend my days. Yea, writhing.

2009-07-23T22:23:00.001+08:00

Headache and sore throat and cough.
This sucks.

My head spins and spins, my throat itches and itch, and my coughs go 'Cough cough'
I can't get sick now, not with my O Levels coming around.

O Level Chemistry SPA Skill 3 tomorrow, I don't really care. It's just the same thing over and over again.
Meh.

I'm still a coward. Ha.

2009-07-20T16:54:00.002+08:00

"Diamond On A Landmine"

Woah-oh-oh
Woah-oh
Woah-oh-oh

Slapped my face, slammed the door
A dozen roses lay on the floor
I saw her friends and I was told
She blocked my number from her cell phone
You said we were meant to be
Now this obsession is killing me
Until I have a heart attack
I'll keep on trying to win you back

Alone at last,
I can't wait till we're alone at last
All i wanted was a second chance, second chance
To hold you in my arms at last

Forever, forever
I'll walk a thousand miles
Just to tell her, to tell her
Our love is still alive
And I'll never, I'll never
I'll never let it die
Well you'd better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine

I'm not so sure about this word
But she kept calling me insecure
I tried to quit but there's no use
Cause I'm addicted to her abuse
She's in control of everything
I'm just a puppet, she pulls my strings
Denying truth, I'll test my fate
And keep on playing this wicked game

Alone at last,
I can't wait till we're alone at last
All i wanted was a second chance, second chance
To hold you in my arms at last

Forever, forever
I'll walk a thousand miles
Just to tell her, to tell her
Our love is still alive
And I'll never, I'll never
I'll never let it die
Well you'd better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine
Better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine
Better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine
Waiting to explode

We're dancing on thin ice before
Frozen from the winter's cold
And if it were to crack below
I'd never let you go

Alone at last,
I can't wait till we're alone at last
All i wanted was a second chance, second chance
To hold you in my arms at last

Forever, forever
I'll walk a thousand miles
Just to tell her, to tell her
Our love is still alive
And I'll never, I'll never
I'll never let it die
Well you'd better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine
Better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine
Better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine
Waiting to explode

Better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine
Better watch your step
She's a diamond on a landmine
Better not touch
She's a diamond on a landmine
Better to forget
She's a diamond on a landmine
Waiting to explode

I'm here, wasting time when I should actually be doing my Chemistry.
Bah, I guess that's me.
Heh, you always see me so happily laughing away, but no one knows how I feel deep inside.

I'm living such a pathetic life, I sometimes hope that you wouldn't talk to me.

2009-07-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

Weekends.
Headache nowadays, don't know why.

A 100 Days to O Levels, I don't know why, but it seems to not be a needle in me.
I think I'm gonna take it relaxed, and do like shit.
Gah, gotta get my priorities up and running.

Studying shit, doing shit, and doing more shit.
Stop playing shit, which I don't think I can stop.

Heh, well, looking forward to the end.
"When, oh when, will it just end."

The thought of you runs through me every time I close my eyes.
Why?

Paramore - Ignorance

If I'm a bad person,
You don't like me.
I guess I'll make my own way,
It's a circle,
I mean cycle.
I can't excite you anymore.
Where's your gavel, your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life.

Chorus:
Don't wanna hear your sad songs.
I don't wanna feel your pain,

When you swear it's all my fault.
Cause you know we're not the same.
We're not the same
Oh we're not the same,

The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,

But I guess you can't accept that the change is good,
It's good
It's good
It's good

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

This is the best thing that could've happened.
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it.
It's not a war.
No, it's not a rapture.
I'm just a person, but you can't take it,
The same tricks that once fooled me.
They won't get you anywhere.
I'm not the same kid from your memory.
Now I can fend for myself.

Chorus:
Don't wanna hear your sad songs.
I don't wanna feel your pain,

When you swear it's all my fault.
Cause you know we're not the same.
We're not the same
Oh we're not the same,

The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,

But I guess you can't accept that the change is good,
It's good
It's good
It's good

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

2009-07-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

Weekdays; school.
SPA Skill 3 kills me.

Planning, so not me.
I'm getting to enjoy school a bit.

ABIT

2009-07-12T00:06:00.003+08:00

"To Die Like Mouchette"

Kick start your heart
Just like an engine
battered and over-used
Are we really ready?
I don't think it's any use

If you think it feels close to you
Hey angel, there's nothing left to loose

Please, believe in what I have to say
The symptoms that you have are so lost
Your wires are crossed, are you leaving?

Discarded on the floor
We feel the pain, nestled in overtures
If you're telling truths to me
so sorry to let it go

If you think it feels close to you
Hey angel, it's hardly a worn excuse

Please, believe in what I have to say
The symptoms that you have are so lost
Your wires are crossed, are you leaving?
Well just leave and never analyse the way
You didn't like the look of his eyes or of his smile
You have to leave it and run away

Please, believe in what I have to say
The symptoms that you have are so lost
Your wires are crossed, are you leaving?
Well just leave and never analyse the way
You didn't like the look of his eyes or of his smile
You have to leave it and run away

What, weekends.
Spent Friday having dinner at PS's Ajisen. $14 flew, haha.
Not bad at all, the food.

Peeks?

Whole set here.

2009-07-09T17:52:00.002+08:00

School's here to stay.
Got to say, not feeling that bored during lessons.

A few more months, what's there to lose.

Maybe I'm a pessimist
What if all the grey clouds in the sky
Follow me home tonight?

Maybe I'm an atheist
What if there's no god waiting to greet me
At the end of the working week

Maybe I'm just delicate
Maybe I am...

Just not clever enough to persuade
Everyone of the reasons
We're failing each other
And it's not the same, not the same to me
No it's not the same, not the same to me

Maybe I'm an optimist
What if all the damage that was done
Was never up to me?

Maybe I'm a liar
What if all the truths that I have told
Are better left, better left unsaid?

What sticks to me
Sticks to you like glue

Maybe I'm just delicate
Maybe I am...

Just not clever enough to persuade
Everyone of the reasons
We're failing each other
And it's not the same, not the same to me
No it's not the same, not the same to me
So I'll pack up my bags and leave
I'll pack up my bags and leave

2009-07-06T19:56:00.003+08:00

So yea, I was go to the NDP Combined Rehearsal 3 on Sat with Jer, Jie, Vera and Hao, and it was awesome.
Met up at City Hall MRT, and something happened.

Dropped a ticket, so we were left with 4 instead of 5. So yea, we were like 'don't know what to do' status there.

Luckily Hao had a yellow sector one, but ours were blue sector.
Thought we're gonna be separated, haha.

Peektures?

"I'm a professional, hire me for a huge amount of money now."

"Lame stuff which I never used. Bean stick was cute :D."

Rest of the pictures are at here.

2009-07-04T09:10:00.001+08:00

Alright I've decided.
I'll live on as normal as I can.

No more fucking jokes.

2009-07-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

You tell me, then I'll stop giving this stupid attitude.
I get the wrong ideas, you supposedly get someone.

Or am I wrong?
I'm so confused, hahahahaha.

Maybe I should go for others.

Had Chinese Oral, man it feels bad.
Conversation was horrible, didn't have anything to say.

Hopefully at least a pass, then this is off my chest.
And, hey that girl was cute, hahaha.

2009-06-27T14:25:00.000+08:00

Confidence blurred by arrogance,
And the self worship continues,
Who is an artist?
You can't decide for yourself,
Straight lines, I see straight lines,
But they control sloppily, stupidly.
Keep that golden, celebrity character to your own conscience
Take a breath and rest your jaw,
A Vertebrae with no spine.
Take a breath and rest your jaw,
A Vertebrae with no spine.
Our entertainment: A mockery
With every laugh and every joke the actor's lungs become more dense with damnation.
Don't mistake my intentions for superiority, let's make that clear.
This isn't right and the worst part is were not pretending.
Don't memorize these names
Eternally.
This world will run dry and well watch the clock,
Well watch what we'll become.
Don't memorize these names,
Eternally.
Take a breath and rest your jaw,
A Vertebrae with no spine.

I'm giving it up.
What's the point? Right?

2009-06-26T23:31:00.001+08:00

What?

School's reopening, this sucks.
Homeworks' just about undone. Piles more to go.

And, well, feeling unwell recently.
Headaches. Wow.

About the catch Transformers 2 later at 1:30 with my brother and his friends.
GRAND CATHAY!! But reviews said the plot was dumb. Meh, I'll enjoy it, I think.

2009-06-22T21:47:00.000+08:00

And the funny thing is it has no end
I try to call you up, at 2am
In a crowded bar, your ringer tones
Grab my mind

I can see you through the phone,
The phone, the phone
And I'm wide awake at home
At home, at home
So I think I'll see my coquette
And hope you don't catch
The bourbon on my breath
My breath, my breath

Catch a cab outside on Seventh Street
And the cars fly through the Bowery
I come to your door and I hear a moan
Then another voice, so Christ, she's not alone
Alone, alone
And my heart sinks like a stone
A stone, a stone
And the tears won't even come
I feel so numb
So swept aside, so dumb
So dumb, so dumb

When the words are wrong
And my patience gone
Will you tell me
Does this mean you're moving on?

From the balcony, you call my name
I see you standing in the rain
Your words so dry, your face so wet
Said I broke your heart,
But it hasn't happened yet
I'll bet, your friends all hate me now
I get the strangest looks,
From that bitchy crowd
And though, they must think
They have every reason to
I guess I'm still not quite yet over you

When the words are wrong
And you're hanging on
Another guy's arm
Does this mean you're moving on?

2009-06-22T19:28:00.000+08:00

Why can't I go one day without thinking, huh?

2009-06-15T10:48:00.001+08:00

Maybe I should stop trying.

Yea.
Irritable.

2009-06-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

Went for Sakae today to send SY off before NS.
Wooo, can't wait to see his bald head, hahahaha.

Anyway, filling, and took a lot of pictures with Hao's Fujifulm camera, PROFESSIONAL CAMERAAAAA!!

WAIT FOR THE PICTURES.
And my secret is out, hahahaha.
Jie and Vera knows :3.

2009-06-09T20:00:00.001+08:00

Shiiiiiiiitttttttttttt.
Yea, I think I'm probably disturbing you.

I'll stop.
Y' know? I don't like it when people start pairing you up with another person.

Gossip, gossip, blah, blah, shit.
I mean, it's like their own business right?

That's where everyone fucked up.

2009-06-07T21:49:00.001+08:00

I ate too many apples, now I have an upset stomach.
School tomorrow, I haven't file my Humanities file yet, so dead.

Hm.
Weather was cooling today, good, good.
Ha.

I feel like I'm disturbing you, am I?

2009-06-06T20:05:00.002+08:00

Well, weekends.
Weather is amazingly hot, unsurprisingly. (I used spell-check cause I fail at spelling)

Honestly, I'm scared of O Levels.
I've been neglecting my studies, so now I'm pretty scared. Hahaha.

Anticipating a game called Scribblenauts.
Bad thing is, it's coming out probably Sept to Nov.

O LEVEL SEASON!!

2009-06-04T22:40:00.002+08:00

Well, moving along.

Gonna change skin soon, gonna be a girly one, hahaha.

Taking Back Sunday, The Devil Wears Prada.
I hear too much emo, and probably too much screamo.

But I like it, I guess.

2009-06-02T11:29:00.001+08:00

Chinese O Levels; done with it, no more.

Now Prelims.
Shit, time's flying.

Hahhahahahah I'm thinking of you every night.
Boggles the mind.

2009-05-31T13:39:00.000+08:00

Less then 24 hours before I take my MT O Level papers.
Wish me luck.

Just gotta face it.

AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA.

2009-05-30T17:06:00.001+08:00

Maybe this shit ain't enough.

Whatever already.
So, can I just give up like that?

Say yes.

2009-05-28T16:02:00.002+08:00

Me?

I just want to scream my lungs out now.
I want to go to the beach at night, so I can shout out without anyone knowing.
I wish I could go to the airport, so that the planes can fly away with my feelings.

Why am I being like this? I don't know why.

I shed a tear in the bus just now.
Is it that simple?

I was blanked out.

2009-05-27T17:23:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA.

What?

Yea I don't really know right now.

2009-05-20T20:38:00.001+08:00

What?

Oh yea, I'm down with the flu.
A minor one.

Can't scream my songs, will cough, hur.

Exams were suck as hell.
All I know is;
Chinese - 51/100 [WHAT THE HELL MAN]
E.Maths - 42/80 [ANOTHER. WHAT THE HELL]
A.Maths - 62/80 [Quite pleased]
Biology - 75/100 [Barely made it]
Chemistry - 65/100 [Just Fuc.ed up]

All that's left is English and Humans.
Expect a bad grade.

And, Chinese O lvels in 12 days.
1st june, mark that day, cause I will be under pressure.
loads.

2009-05-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

We found a house with a big yard
And moved all of my things
And most of your things, in
And honey I was proud of it
Honey I was proud of, you

You quote the Good Book,
When it's convenient
But you don't have the sense
No you don't have the sense
To talk this through to dawn
Instead you're slashing through the mud

Some boxes, that
Hand-me-down couch, and chair
That used to be at your church
We borrowed them from there
A cabinet record player with nothing but James Taylor
Two carpets from the corner store
Cover the hardwood floor
I'd be a fool to ask for more...

You quote the Good Book,
When it's convenient
But you don't have the sense
No you don't have the sense
To talk this through to dawn
Instead you're slashing through the mud

You quote the Good Book,
When it's convenient
But you don't have the sense
No you don't have the sense
To talk this through to dawn
Instead you're slashing through the mud

The love you had was good enough
The path that we were stuck between
But so much stuff must go tonight,
Oh Lord, what have I done?

You quote the Good Book,
When it's convenient
But you don't have the sense
No you don't have the sense
To talk this through to dawn
Instead you're slashing through the mud

Hm?
It's supposed to be a personal song by Taking Back Sunday's front man, Adam Lazzara.
Well, it's a nice song overall.

Chinese O's in what, 12 days?
I'm so gonna do badly.

Always hated Chinese, always hated me.
Hopefully a B3 would be suffice.

Gotta hit the sack.
I think this is becoming a personal diary @_@.

2009-05-18T20:02:00.002+08:00

Finally, Mid-Years are over.
Gone, kaput.

Now, Prelims.
Well, life goes on.

Went to play L4D with JiaLing and Andy just now.
Was, just too random.

Shoot, kill, laugh.
Hur.
Went to KFC, and JL was identifying people to which infected they are ._.

Meh.

Hey, ____!
How are you? We aren't that close as a friend now are we?
How about we talk about it?

2009-05-15T20:41:00.002+08:00

Forward can't be stopped.

A.Maths was fine I guess, pretty disappoint at not knowing how to do a few.
At least 10 marks gone, shit.

Oh well, gotta have to face the truth sooner or later.
Not looking forward to Chemistry.

TBH, I don't know why I hate Chemistry.
Maybe it's the way the subject goes.

O Levels; so not my friend.
You; maybe not.
Me; somehow hate myself.

Twisting the facts.

2009-05-14T21:49:00.004+08:00

Exams.
It's obvious
I'm too stressed.
It's obvious
It just goes to show that some words are useless.
It just goes to show that some words are useless.
Take all your medals, take all your ribbons,
Take all your awards, take them, take them back to the ground.
It's obvious
It's obvious
It's obvious
It's obvious

2009-05-02T13:33:00.000+08:00

Is still living in his simple, pathetic life.

2009-05-01T14:01:00.000+08:00

Great piece.
Thanks Jeremy for the recommendation.

2009-04-28T16:13:00.001+08:00

Exams.
Suck.
Sick.
Shit.

Hi.

Anyway.

The Devil Wears Prada
Dez Moines lyrics
Send "Dez Moines" Ringtone to your Cell
Fall to your knees, accomplishing nothing.
Fall to your knees, only to exercise your schedule.
Abandon calendar.

What has come with such preaching is loneliness.
Profit: zero, achievement: zero.

Forward can't be stopped.
It just goes to show that some words are useless.
It just goes to show that some words are useless.
Take all your medals, take all your ribbons,
Take all your awards, take them, take them back to the ground.

Our youth is lost;
A product of the created circumstances.
All I can say is maybe
Maybe, maybe
All I can say is maybe
This is what I've been expecting all along, all along.
Now's the time of weakness, now's the time of blood.
Perhaps even the whole-hearted had wished for this.
Now's the time of weakness, now's the time of blood,
And still the time of lions.
Push everything, force everything.

We've all sung of the end, but who truly understands it?
All along, all along

Forward can't be stopped,
It just goes to show that some words are useless.
It just goes to show that some words are useless.
Take all your medals, take all your ribbons,
Take all your awards, take them back to the ground.

Yes it's screamo.

2009-04-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

So I have a pathetic life.
I can live on.

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

School tomorrow.
Damn, not looking forward to it.

2009-04-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

The earth, it spins and shakes
It spits you out, it knows your name

No one notices.

Are you there?

2009-04-08T22:11:00.001+08:00

You claim to be my 'best friend'.

But now you're ignoring me, even in class.
I think we'll stop talking even before we graduate.

You changed everything.

2009-03-31T20:56:00.000+08:00

I'm living on you pity, symphaty.

2009-03-06T20:47:00.002+08:00

Well, school's been passing along slowly like a snaily.

Got back most results, did fairly average.
Except for my Chem and A.Maths and Bio.

I sucked big time.
Not a single A from my Sciences.

Yea.
Well, gotta mug now.
MUGGGG.

UPDATE : 9:10PM

I've spent the last hour looking at my old Primary School photos.
I've got to say, the memories spent there has got to be the best of my school life.

The carefree life, the friends, the field.
Now, if only secondary school life was almost like that.

Meh, hopefully it will.

ANYWAY! Pictures of the old me might be up, if I feel like it.
I look weird.

If only it wasn't like that at all.
I miss you guys back in the old days.

2009-02-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

Pissed, yea.

I feel stupid.

2009-01-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOO MOO YEAR :D.

2009-01-25T17:06:00.002+08:00

Close your eyes and make believe this is where you want to be
Forgetting all the memories, try to forget love cause love's forgotten me
Well hey, hey baby, it's never too late pretty soon you won't remember a thing
And I'll be distant, the stars reminiscing
Your heart's been wasted on me

You've never been so used as I'm using you, abusing you
My little decoy
Don't look so blue, you should've seen right through
I'm using you, my little decoy
My little decoy

Live your life inside a dream
Time is changing everything
Forgetting all the memories
And I'm forced into you just cause you're into me
Well hey, hey baby, it's never too late
When I'm gone you won't remember a thing
But I can't stay and you know I won't wait
I was gone from the very first day

You've never been so used as I'm using you, abusing you
My little decoy
Don't look so blue, you should've seen right through
I'm using you, my little decoy

Oh, oh.
I'm not sorry at all
(not sorry at all, not sorry. no.)
I won't be sorry at all
(not sorry at all, not sorry. no.)
I'd do it over again

Don't look so blue, my little decoy
You should've seen right through, my little decoy
You've never been so used, my little decoy
And so I'm using you, my little decoy

2009-01-15T21:05:00.001+08:00

I suck at school.
I've got to buck up.

I feel so stupid.

Bio, chem, maths, humanities.
Shit.

A1's gone?

2009-01-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

Bored.

Worried about my future :/.
Should I go JC or Poly?

If I go JC, can I manage?
If I go Poly, can I decide?

I don't really know.
I feel confused :/.

2009-01-03T21:37:00.002+08:00

Hm?
School has started.

Wow, just in a blink of an eye.
Back to the desks, back into uniforms.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh not ready @_@.

Before that was New Year's Eve ~

Went for 3B BBQ -coughwalkedfor1andahalfhourcough-
Eat, play, talk.

Lmao.
After that, went to SY's house.

Saw IV, Zohan, Blades of Glory.

Was entertaining.

Celebrated my sis's birthday today.
Eat some random Korean Restaurant, was ok :x.

Then go buy stuffs, like shirts and pants.
Now all I need are more shirt and some shoes.

Maybe a jeans? Lol :3.

Uhhh, bored now.
I WANT THE CAKE >_<

2008-12-17T10:30:00.003+08:00

Whao, finally I blogs? :3.
Uhhh, had chalet from Fri to Sun. It was funzxzxzx ~

Fri [12th Dec ] :
Uhh, was last to reach White Sands Macs @_@. I was like, 40 minutes late :3.
I feel evil :x.

After that, paid teh moneh, then went to teh Zone-X.
Look at Jer play Jubeat??. It was retarded, pressing buttons on a 4x4 grid.

'Scatman, lalalalalala'

After awhile then we went to the chalet lor.
So crammed in the bus :3. All the fat bags :X.

Then one thing happened, so funny ;D.
Vera say she want eat, then want to sleep, then I say use tubes lor.

'You know, when people in coma, they use tubes to feed them?'
ROFL !

Fun la.

Then later go makan, then come back.
A buncha us[ me, vera, ly, sy, jw ] went up and watch movies. Like Shaun of the dead and jackass the movie 2 :3. It was funny.

Then the mahjong people force us to go down @_@. They want sleep :/.
Ok lor, then we played Hotel 626. Jw's lap soooo laggy until the girl wake up also cannot scare us :D.
Play until late late, then sleep sleep.

2nd Day [ Sat 13th ] :
Hao came at 6+? Woke us at the floor one :3.
He keep knocking, but we were too tired :/.

Then suddenly Pf came down, lol. Open and TADAH ~ Hao appeared.
Then as the sleepy pigs went down from the 2nd floor, we moved to the top floor.

I was sad ;_: I slept on floor for awhile, until jian wen kind kind give me a space beside him.

Our legs were curled up :3.
Cold, so after awhile I go down play DS :/
Ds died on me >_<. Charge :3. Later suddenly, Hao locked vera when she brushing teeth. LOL very funny :3. It was there for quite awhile :x.
Later go buy bbq stuff, blah blah, then come back. I got nothing to do x_x. Walk here walk there :x.
Later BBQ, take long long start fire.
Then eat eat eat, and there was alot of chicken wings[ppk].
3 packets. HOD eat alot @_@. Like monster. Well, he's the animal :3.
Then late late, they sing in room, lol.
After awhile, I got vera to help me with a.maths. Too very long to solve a question :x. Funny :3. Then sleep, leg numb, body aches ~.

Day 3 [ Sun 14th ] :
Final day, nothing much, except go eat, pack stuffs up, then go arcade. Then go home. Took 45 minutes bus with HOD. WOw, long :x. NOW AT HOME. I kena cough, sore throat, slight fever. I feel sad >_<

HOMEWORKS ARE NEEDED TO BE DONE ZOMGWTHBBQ.

2008-12-04T14:23:00.002+08:00

Finally?
Holidays are nearing to an end.

Less then a month, I'll be back in school, donning a uniform, clad in white shoes, carrying a giant bag pack.

Sec 4, O levels.
JC, or Poly? Cannot decide :/.

---

Many things happened, had 2B 07 BBQ.
Whao, many stuff happened there.

Before that, overnight at Shanon's house.
DUDE, we went to the Hong Kong Cafe 24 Hours at Kovan there, and it was like, 1am in the morning?

We ordered food, then Shuo Feng ordered a desert.
$5.50 FOR THIS GIGANTIC MOUNTAIN OF RED BEAN-NESS.
It was like, huge @_@. Ate a bit, then we left. Lol.

Nothing much happened, then the day arrives.
BARBECUE ~

Apparently, I found it quite boring.
Stood here, stood there, sat, ate, drink, stare.

Probably the most coolest thing that happened was Edmund cutting his finger, it was so friggin deep, with blood dripping.
VAMPIRE MODE!

Rofl, hope he's fine now man ;).

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Homework, haven't touch.
Gotta do it soon.

ANYWAY, HEAR THIS SONG, NA0.

Blame Me! Blame Me!
And we could ride all night
To the pace of the blinking light
Wishing traffic was faster (traffic was faster)
Keeping safe distance, but courting disaster

We could dance all night
To the sounds of a starting fight
Hoping change would come around (change would come around)
Amazing division, how sweet the sound

Blame me! Blame me! Blame me!
For mistakes you've made but you can't own
Hate me, hate me, hate me
For every honest word that you've postponed
Leave me out of this
Your life's a sinking ship, so
Blame me, blame me, blame me
For mistakes you've made but you can't own

And we could stare all day
At problems that won't go away
Silence is pounding (silence is pounding)
You're wearing me down, these corners they're rounding

Then we could scream all night
With no resolve still left in sight
Stop saying you're sorry
All of these words feel so very empty

Blame me! Blame me! Blame me!
For mistakes you've made but you can't own
Hate me, hate me, hate me
For every honest word that you've postponed
Leave me out of this
Your life's a sinking ship, so
Blame me, blame me, blame me
For mistakes you've made but you can't own

Torturing ourselves, we must be into the abuse
If you're the rope that ties us together
Please make me a noose
Ask me to leave
Then beg me just to stay
Used to run to my arms, but now I walk away
Come and go as you please
I'm like a part-time lover with well-worn knees
Well, come on

Blame me! Blame me! Blame me!
For mistakes you've made but you can't own
Hate me, hate me, hate me
For every honest word that you've postponed
Leave me out of this
Your life's a sinking ship, so
Blame me, blame me, blame me
For mistakes you've made but you can't own

2008-11-03T17:18:00.001+08:00

;).